Thinking About Inking

There's still a week left before my birthday and I haven't really decided yet what to get for myself. I don't know if you ever give yourselves gifts when it's your birthday or when it's Christmas or when you did something good for yourself that you actually feel like rewarding yourself but I do. I give myself a gift every year when it's my birthday, also when it's Christmas (because of course that's the time of the year that you have a lot of money...Thank you uncles and aunts!). I also buy myself gifts whenever I feel like I deserve one (like every after the term when I feel that I have endured so much) or whenever if I have a problem and I feel that the only solution is to shop. How rich eh? NOT. Hahaha! But it just makes me feel like better. It's like you're acknowledging things that only you would really know.

So anyway, this year, I'm thinking of getting my self some stuff. I was thinking of shoes but then I remembered I had bought myself shoes before classes started, before 3rd term started, and last Christmas. I love shoes so much but I feel like getting myself something else this year or at least buying shoes during a different time, not on my birthday. Another gift I have in mind is enrolling myself in the gym but then I have to pay for that monthly so it really doesn't come off as a gift right? I'm not really a fan of gadgets so that is crossed out already. Some things I can think of are just boring and could be bought at a different time, not really special, not birthday-material.

Getting myself inked, or having a tattoo is one of the other options I have. I have wanted a tattoo back when I had my first piercing. I had myself pierced when I was in high school. If I remember correctly, that was after first or second year high? That piercing did not really have any meaning compared to my second one which happened after senior year. I had another piercing then because I felt extremely sad about something. I wanted to feel pain (emo right? Hahaha!). There was a story behind it. It's true what people say that after you had yourself a piercing or a tat, you'd come back for more. That was just what I felt. You can say I'm rebellious for thinking that because I never looked like the type who'd get myself things like that. Inside me though, I feel that my pierced self was the other side of me waiting to come out aside from the diva unleashed already.

After my helix pierce, I wanted another one. Maybe the tongue, or the brow, I don't know. Tattoos then, although I want it, I was afraid of it. I was afraid of something that will be marked forever on my skin. I always asked what ifs...What if I don't like it? What if it goes wrong? What if I like it now but when I become old I no longer like it? It's a different story now though. I've put a lot of thinking about it for the last three years, hahaha! (And I think it really takes a lot of thinking to finally decide to get one and I think that thinking about it should be done in a calm and collected manner) So, I think, I'm probably ready to get one. I really don't know where to place it but I have thought of some designs. Let me show you in my next posts... :)

Ciao!